The Story of Jade

This is the story of an FA'er,
I'm not writing my whole life story. Some things are too traumatic and upsetting and personal. So, my life isn't as bad as it was a few years ago. A few years ago I would have been moving house over and over, never having a real ''home'' and more I don't even want to share with anyone, at all. I'm only writing this to let everything out, to be honest. I've been getting bullied the past three years now. It wasn't psychical bullying until I stood up for myself. I've never told anybody(they'd never believe me anyways, nobody believes anything I say) just one person from FA. But nobody in my real life, There is nobody to tell. My mum is always at work, I hardly ever see her. And when I do she's on some kind of call, so I go out to talk and she says ''Just one minute'' and it turns into an hour, or a day, or a week. My dad is just way to hard to talk to, he goes nuts anytime you say something. There's just nobody left. Friends don't care. My life is kind of bad that way, in the way I don't have anyone to talk to or go to. I've attempted su!cide before, didn't work. Now there's another name added onto the list that bullies name me.. that's ''Emo''. Then my boyfriend found out about the su!cide bit, he thinks I'm a freak and need therapy. I have a feeling my mum is cheating on my dad. She's always staying somewhere else, she never picks up the phone. One time I decided to go through her messages I was that curious, she text her friend that she ''went on that blind date''. So much for being ''In a relationship''. So now all I have is FA, but slowly everyone is turning against me there. Plus I have no hope in acting nice, people will just ''see right through it''. I try too hard to fit in there and to be ''Honest''. Truth is I rather just being nice.. But now there are people in FA calling me names. So I guess I'll have to live with everyone against me. But the thing is, I'll never be able to Really leave FA. No matter what happens. Let's just hope I don't lose everything I have, out of very little. But like I say, if there's nothing left to lose there's everything to gain. I'll keep hope. I just wish people thought about what they said before they said it, it may not look like it's hurting them. But it is. Bullies hurt me. People hurt me. Words hurt me. I'm a sensitive and self-conscious person, but I try to hide the pain. I won't be around much longer if this keeps up. I have no confidence, I feel just as ugly as bullies describe me. I have low self-esteem and I'm not perfect, nowhere near it. Never have been never will be.

This is my life FA, now you know.