The Story of Elaina

(Elaina chose to have her name published. Unless they state that they want their name published, all future posts are anonymous).

This is the story of an FA’er. She grew up in a small, quiet town, where everyone knew each other. She liked to smile and be outside as much as possible. In 2nd grade she became best friends with the popular girl. And that’s when everything unraveled. In 3rd grade they welcomed another friend. And they became the three girls that ruled the elementary school. But when her best friend moved away, she had no one that understood her. She wasn’t as close to her other friends. The summer before she went to middle school she went through depression. She didn’t go anywhere. She craved attention and would do anything to get it. When she started middle school she was only ‘popular’ because of that one friend she made in 3rd grade was. And at the end of 6th grade. When she did something so bad that all her friends ditched her she would be back at the bottom of the totem pole, which she had not been to since 1st grade. That summer she did everything she could to get her friends back. By the time 7th grade started she was willing to do anything to have her life back. That’s when her parents started arguing because someone in her close family wouldn’t stop drinking. She cried herself to sleep. She had few friends. But she got her friends back in 7th grade. She was back. But the problem with being ‘back’ is that everyone thought she was bulletproof. They thought calling her names like ‘snob’, ‘*****’, and **** wouldn’t hurt her. She’s now in 8th grade and acts like everything is perfect. Everyone thinks she’s perfect. She’s not. She has that past depression that still tries to come back every now and then. The pressure to stay thin and pretty at all times makes her frustrated. Having a straight ‘A’ older brother that she has to live up to because she’s afraid her parents won’t be proud of her. And even though all those pressures are still around, she confides herself with music. Music won’t ever backstab her, be disappointed in her, or look down on her. That girl loves her friends that came back to her. And you know she’s not perfect because she comes on this site to talk to amazing people that won’t judge her, call her names, or expect her to achieve. That girl is me.

This is my life FA, now you know.

-Elaina