The Story of KT

(KT chose to have her name published. Unless they state that they want their name published, all future posts are anonymous).

This is the story of a FA'er. It's about a girl who has had to grow up fast, and build a thick layer of skin to block the hurt, the lies, and the pain. The girl grew up in a beautiful family on the outside. They moved when she was in preschool to a beach house, a fantasy land. Inside of the house wasn't a fantasy. The parents argued about anything under the sun, and loved including the children in all arguements to prove a point. The tension grew, and more and more the girl didn't want to be home. She didn't rebel, she didn't lash out, what it did do was make her stronger. She acceled in school in an attempt to get her parents attention. She made herself look perfect so her parents would be proud of her. She pushed herself to the limits in ballet so her parents would say "Wow, that's our daughter." In the long-run, it didn't work. The family had to fall apart.

It has been roughly a year now, and the girl can now feel happy. She can smile, laugh, have separate time with her parents without all of the tension. She hates seeing the other families who are perfect and together, but she is blessed to have both of her parents alive. The girl still pushes perfection to please her parents, because they deserve a great daughter. The girl isn't perfect. Nothing close. But she tries her hardest, which sometimes is extremely difficult. Sometimes she just wants to be a free-spirit, but she must keep up with her family. The girl loves this family to pieces, and loves all of the vacations the family do at their houses. It makes her feel like she now belongs to something bigger. She feels like she has huge expectations to live up to, but she wants to push herself to a safe limit, and get somewhere in life. This story isn't full of excessive drama, but it is the life of a girl who seems perfect on the outside. There is always pain and confusion on the inside of every girl.

This is my life FA, now you know.

-KT